Audre Lorde is known for her many identities such as a black, lesbian, warrior and poet. Though these are all crucially important to her identity, another vital aspect of who she is would be her journey with breast cancer. Breast cancer had an extremely big impact on her life and how she viewed it. Though at times she thought she might not get through it she had the support of the important women in her life. With the knowledge of the fragility of her life, it gave Lorde a perspective on how she should be spending their time on earth and who she should be spending it with. Especially after we just finished up pleasure week in class there is this notion of what really bring pleasure to people besides sexual pleasures. For Lorde, one of those things was the company of the women in her life during this difficult with her battle with breast cancer. Lorde states, “Support will always have a special and vividly erotic set of image/meanings for me now, one of which is floating upon a sea within a ring of women like warm bubbles keeping me afloat upon the surface of that sea” (pg. 39). After reading this section of her journal I felt moved. It was moving that such words and imagery made me feel and connect on her level of comfort. Lorde was well known in her past for always speaking in poetic language and this is well seen in her journal entries. Even though I cannot even imagine what it feels like to go through life with breast cancer, I know that in hard times the comfort of loved ones is more healing than most medications.
Lorde also discussed her acceptance of death. The acceptance of death is one that not many people are strong enough to commit to. Lorde says in one part of the journal, “The acceptance of death as a fact, rather than the desire to die, can empower my energies with a forcefulness and vigor not always possible when one eye is out unconsciously for eternity” (pg.26). This is an important idea because she turned the idea of death into something that would empower her and make her stronger rather than tearing her apart. Death is something that can be terrifying for almost anyone but to be able to death with and accept the idea can make people more powerful and enlightened. It can make people realize how to better spend the limited years we have on this planet.
One other important idea that Lorde states in her journal entries is the fact that she did not get a prosthetic breast after her mastectomy. This is crucial because many women get prosthetic breasts order to hide the pain and loss that they have gone through. But Lorde chooses not to get a prosthetic breast because she said that “The emphasis on wearing a prosthesis is a way of avoiding having women come to terms with their own pain and loss, and therapy, with their own strength”(pg. 49). With this it seems that Lorde’s way of coping with the pain is not to cover it up with something fake, but to keep the scars and make her stronger through them. I also never gave much thought into how much breasts mean to the identity of a woman until they are gone. Lorde makes many comments on how she missed the comfort of her breasts and that without them she felt like a part of her was missing. I never gave much thought into how impactful a breast could be in a woman’s life but now I know that they are. They are a part of the identity of women as a whole and without one of them it would feel like a part of our identity as a woman would seem taken away.
Questions:
- Do you agree with Lorde that having a prosthetic breast covers up the pain or do you think that it is a way to make women feel more beautiful (like how after chemotherapy women wear wigs in order to feel more beautiful)?
- I think we can all learn something really important from Lorde’s journal entries about the fragility of life. After reading her journal how did it change your views on how you live your life?